Isn't it crazy how things just happen when you get the idea of wanting to do something for God? I mean all I wanted to do is start a blog, a page, something to express my gratitude towards Him, and to help others not feel as if they are alone in this walk. The moment I made it clear to start this page ( clear in my mind, with God and told my husband), all of a sudden I started having some issues at home. Kids decided to go crazy on me, my teenager has been more moody like there has been a FULL MOON everyday! The younger boys played with our brand new computer and it crashed and I've been in an "out of it" rut feeling. Resulting in no blog posts, no working on getting a page started, nothing, absolutely NOTHING. I mean I have the desire Lord, I want to write and share devotionals and do something that reminds me of what my purpose is. Honestly, I've been afraid to try, afraid to get to that point of being "sold out" for YOU because it does come with a price. It means that even when things go wrong, issues arise, or maybe I don't have that same "feeling" of excitement, that I will still push through and still commit time with you everyday.
When things get hard, which they usually do, I want to say never mind, I will just coast by. Live my life, be content with everyday duties. BUT there's that tug, that tug on my heart that reminds me that our life is NOT our own. It was paid with a price by YOU. So God, lately I haven't been feeling the butterflies, and the "wow" passion to write or even have quiet time, but I need you. I need you even in the "rut" days, ESPECIALLY in those "out of it" days.
So God I ask you to work in me, and help those who are also feeling distant with you to make time everyday to get in your word. Help us to press in and try, even when the butterflies seem to fly away and complacency fills our days. Keep our minds aware of your presence and our hearts craving more of YOU. We need You the great "I AM" to wake up our spirits to be INTENTIONAL in our walk with you. Help us to get up, pray, read your word, and make time with YOU. Help us not get so busy in our own "to do" list that you become left out. Lord help us..... in Jesus name AMEN!
Gina...I feel the same way. I am so glad that you are doing this. There are just not enough hours in the day to get "everything" done. However, connecting with GOD should be a priority at least to me and for my life. I need HIM like I need air to breath. It's crazy to explain it but I feel lost when I feel he is not around. I am not happy feeling that way. Thank you for having a place for me to express myself.
ReplyDeleteThank you for commenting :) I have been going through a "pensive" stage right now in my walk with the Lord. I don't know how to describe it, but my heart has been really sad with so many things going on around us, and it's really making me look at myself and what I find important. I'm realizing that there are a lot of things inside of me that I need to change and one thing is being consistent with my daily quiet time, it refocuses me!
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