People have told me that I am "overboard" when it comes to the whole God "thing".   I have had someone close to me sarcastically say, hey "thumper"....meaning bible thumper, and yes, it has bothered me.  I am sure it may even cross people's mind why HE is such a big deal to me, or why I seem to bring HIM up when it comes to big things or the little minute things that I deal with.

I guess it could be because I know what it's like to come from a divorce family and see a lot of pain and violence and KNOW that God made sure my brother, sister and I were safe.  It could be because I know what its like to have so little and be so embarrassed to ask for help, but God made a way.  It could also be the time I was shaken to the core by undeniable heartbreak it literally caused me to lose my voice where I was unable to speak.  It could be the fact that with my firstborn,
I was told he had a chance of having a genetic abnormality and I had to live with thoughts of condemnation wondering if God was mad at me (total LIE from the enemy). It could be the fact that I have been hurt by "Christians" and felt like I wanted the total opposite of what a "Christian" lifestyle was at one point, but later realized no-one is perfect except GOD.  You see this is just the TIP of the iceberg of the things that have drawn me clinging to HIM for help, hope, happiness and life.  There is NO WAY that I would even be here if it wasn't for God pulling me with HIS love, HE has been and is my best friend.  My HERO.  I go in circles with my thoughts, things I do in life and I have never met anyone more patient and able to deal with me with such love and understanding.

God, many times people, sometimes even those in our family, may not understand our walk with you or why we have to go to YOU for decisions.  I pray that we wouldn't worry so much about how "we" look or if it seems foolish, but let our hearts be at ease knowing that YOU know the reasons why and what we have been through to get us to this point.  I pray that we would use our past to be a light of hope to others, that there is a way and that way is YOU.